is this my life?

August 30, 23:33 WIB

hemm...
The picture is taken in Bali. the date was between 23-26 of august 2008.
Fun, happy, refreshing, crazy, extatic, but also hollow...

I need to get away from time to time...
not always have to be far away, but just some time to think.

Today, I've learn about coordinating....
making plans with friend is nice, but people have their own characters.
Some people will go with the flow, others need to have a fixed plan, other stick to their limit, or exceed their potential...

well, that what makes us think and learn and grow....

so next stop,
do things for others...

niki out

just the thing I need

everything seems to go out, out of order, out of place, out of control.

is it just me, who has been doing too little to upgrade myself, or is it a sign, for me to do something about everything, instead of nothing.

why is it that every single thing that i do seems to have no good result.

I feel like running away, just like i always do.

Can't really do that anymore.

I feel that I will perish, if I don't do something about it.
What is I am talking about really?

my life?

I'm really not quiet sure.

I should restart, reboot, reinstall myself.

At this point, that is what I am thinking.

I once said that I am a lost soul.
right now, I feel like a tiny speck, with no destination, nothing to hold on to,
nothing to look up to.

what should I refer to so that I can pull myself together?

I have been thinking too much and too little,
and now, have been doing shit about my life.

Well then, what I can do right now is jump ship.
hahaha....

do I look like I need a break?
Or am I too exaggerating?

21:58 WIB
Niki out

atmosphere

We, people, have a thing about places.

Examples: I have places to go for my sanctuary, I don't know if it's out of habits, coziness, the spirits within, or the atmosphere.

But it happens.

My favorite places are:

1. the coral reefs
2. my high school chapel
3. the open nature
4. my parents room
5. and others yet to be found..

I will find out, if its the smell, or the air, or whatever that is that makes us comfortable and feel safe with these places.

I bet we can make other places that we don't like, into a comfortable place, if we know, the secret of sanctuary.

August 12, 2008
14:43 WIB
niki out.