Friends, Giants & Hugs

"Because we are... your friends, You'll never be Alone Again, well come on... well come on..."
I can't seems to get bored of this song by Justice, for friends are what have kept me going all along.
And so, the story goes on.

Two Thousand Twelve, March, Twenty Second, afternoon, Puputan Square.
Picked up my brother, and we went to a friend's house near Kreneng Market in Denpasar. Today is the day before the Silent Day or Nyepi. Everywhere around Bali, people are gathering around for Ngrupuk parade of Ogoh-ogoh, Giant demon characters statues made out of styrofoam and paper mache. Symbolizing the evil being from the Sanskrit mythology (I think so). We dressed up with Balinese kamen, and were waiting for a couple of more friends to come before heading to the Square. She was coming too. This was the first time that I spent quite a long time with her. It's always nice to see her, I come to realize.
We started walking to Puputan Square, after 5 months, we finally got to know a little bit of each other. Still in some detached ways. The Square was packed with people, and the parade keeps going on and on. after a couple hours, the crowd subsided, so all of us went back. I had a nice time with her, but somehow, again I didn't do anything more about it. I guess there was something inside me that holds me back, or am I trying not to invade too much.

Two Thousand Twelve, October, Third, Midnight, Windy and chills after the rain.
After work, I went home and start scrubbing my bathroom, and the water suddenly became murky. No chance of taking a shower, so I let it run for awhile. I lit up an incense and start making coffee, my room is quite tidy, if I may say so myself. She came to my place, things are a little bit awkward..We talked about random stuffs, and ate some moon cake from last Sunday Full moon celebration. discussed her plan for out of town trip and how I couldn't sleep yesterday. And then, she took a nap.
She was getting ready to go home, and then we started to really talked. Talk became tears, tears became hugs, and hugs followed by frown, kisses and smiles. I wish things were better, but I won't complain. I told her that she is the best thing that has happened in my life, and how ever hard it is, I will try to find a way, without putting all the burden on her. I still don't really know what I'm talking about, yet I am getting better at holding myself up, and hopefully not giving her a hard time. Seeing the glow in her eyes, I just want her to stay happy, wherever that will take me.

The day ended up with a long hug and smile. More to come...

Her Morning Elegance, Art & Music Festival

Tonight, with the company of Oren Lavie song, Her Morning Elegance, I am trying to continue where I left off yesterday. Still telling the story from the recent past, connected to my random meeting with a girl, without touching each other life (or maybe it did, I just didn't notice it).

Two Thousand Twelve, February, Twenty Eighth, afternoon, Literature Faculty of Udayana University.
It has been a few weeks since I got my new motorcycle, I am no longer riding my bike everywhere around. There was a festival going on, being member of the Lomonesia Bali, we were invited to display our unique photography community. There was also some bands playing, food bazaar, and talkshow about health issues on autoimmune diseases (I think it's Lupus). I arrived late for the set up, but early for the event. After hanging around for awhile, people are starting to gather, the bands started playing.
Not to my surprise, but felt excited at the same time, we met again. She was coming with her friends, I said hi, she said "Hi Niki..." and giving me a nice smile. She didn't stay for long, got another thing to do with her friends. Only much later that I know, there could be something about us, but I didn't really follow it through for some reasons. It's either the unstable me, or the wall I saw around her. Close, friendly, yet not that open. Maybe this is just my excuse of being a screw up.
Anyway, the moment passed, and I stayed for the event, my brother came by later to watch some band playing, including L'alphalpha with my friend as the manager. we said goodbye after, going our separate ways, my brother and I.

Two thousand Twelve, October, Second, almost midnight, the mosquitoes are vicious out here.
Today we have not contacted each other, I managed to feel okay and just doing stuffs at work. Getting myself busy and my senses going. She is still on my mind, no doubt. For some reason last night I had a dream about her dad, we were starting out awkward, but went to a journey together and some crazy dream event, eventually he said, "You're not so bad after all." This is just my subconscious hoping things would be well. I know that much.
After hours, I met my brother, picked him up from college, and let him drive my motorcycle. He was kinda nervous, never really ride a bike before, but so far nothing happens, besides some honking and got side tracked couple of times. I dropped him home to my aunt's and went home. and that sums up my day.

Let's see what tomorrow brings, shall we?